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Turning 40

I took yesterday off. I spent the last day of my 30s at home, reading comics and watching sci fi.

It was a perfect day for me.

I am a sucker for the odometer effect and what it does for me, this one feels like I am really changing  things over.

I’ve come to a realization that this might be the actual middle of my life. I’ve been pretty rough on my body the first 40 years, I’m not sure how well it bounces back anymore.

I remember my dad turning 40. I was 14 years old, and we bought all this “over the hill” gag gift stuff from the mall. I remember thinking 40 was such a long way away. I hoped to have my shit together by then.

Fast forward a few years, and here I am. There are things that 40 year old Tim has 20 year old Tim would never want, and 14 year old Tim surely never imagined.

40 year old Tim has a house. He only got it 6 months ago but it counts. 20 year old Tim hates yard work, and 14 year old Tim was going to be a vagabond.

40 year old Tim has played in a lot of bands. 20 year old Tim thought The Blacklisted was going to last forever, and 14 year old Tim never dreamed he would have the guts to pick up a microphone.

40 year old Tim has a wife who he loves, 20 year old Tim never dreamed of marriage and 14 year old Tim wasn’t giving up comics.

It’s a weird wild ride. I’ve been playing music long enough that to quit now would be taking me off life support. I just don’t know what else I would do. I’m a lifer now. Sure I may be old and out of touch. I don’t recover from waking up on the floor like I used to, but I’m still plugging along.

I’m thankful for the opportunity I have got. To still plug along. To still say “no” to the way things are. My anger is a gift. Love was a gift too. I put it all out there. I was talking to Brea about it last night.

The greatest thing I learned in 40 years is not to care anymore. I don’t care about being commercially successful. The stuff I put out with Lechuza is the angriest and most honest thing I have written lately, it’s success shows. The feelings and emotion I put into the Loveletter was what I felt at the moment and when I was honest, it bloomed to a band that is still brought up. Commercially, these bands shouldn’t exist, a punk band lost in time and a indie emo band that cost severe street cred, but they do.

I stopped caring really, and you should too.

I hope when you turn a milestone age, you can make the same observations.

I hope you start to take on a project for purely selfish means and put it out there. For the simple reason that only you can do it. I want you to be successful on your own terms and damn what the opinion is. They’re only people, and they are either going to appreciate you or be sheep. Don’t be sheep. Be the asshole that dared to do what they wanted. If it’s honest, someone will appreciate it.

 

Lechuza was added to this show for August!

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sooo…. TSS is added to this bill in August. 



sooo…. TSS is added to this bill in August. 

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a few weeks ago, I decided to make a video zine, basically edit…



a few weeks ago, I decided to make a video zine, basically edit some stuff together on a computer from cell phone videos and captured pictures on the net. I looked up “video zine” and didn’t see too many things about it. I thought “gee why not, this was pretty easy to make, I got a few friends to send me stuff, you would think it would take off.

I guess it doesn’t pay to think, so I made this, it’s just the first one, I’m already working on #2… guess we’ll see if people like it.

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